January 29, 2025.
That’s the day my entire world changed.
But we won’t jump straight to that day. I’ll keep it to the point. We’ll start here:

Walking Empty

Starting in 2021, for various reasons, I walked away from God. After surviving low point after low point in my life, I thought, “Well, God, I guess I’ll just do it myself.” So, I did. And I failed tremendously. I felt like my life was in an endless rut for four years. It didn’t matter how hard I tried, worked, saved money, or tried to rest and recover; I was utterly exhausted in every way. My resources were consistently drained, and I lived in a constant state of stress.

I became slightly curious about going back to God after several conversations with one of my friends. We talked about spirituality in most of our conversations. He never knew I wasn’t a believer, since I was a believer and churchgoer for most of my life. We had several conversations about the bible, music, and discernment. Little did he know, he planted a seed.

January 6, 2025

The day of mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual liberation. On that day, I went through a breakup. I called my best friend and told her about it and she replied with, “Good. I’ve been praying for you to be free of that man for a long time.” Tears of gratefulness dropped from my cheeks. I was incredibly thankful to have someone that concerned for me.

Two weeks later, I had the worst case of influenza that I ever remember having. I had a fever for five days and was sick for about ten days. I promise, this is relevant information.

January 29, 2025

Finally, I was completely recovered from influenza. . . So, I thought. I pulled up to a client’s house (the biggest house that I clean). I started out strong, but after about an hour into cleaning, I was spent. I sat down on the couch with my head spinning. I pushed through until I got to the last room. I knew this house inside and out. I knew that the credenza in the corner of the dining room was full of knick-knacks and was very difficult to clean without knocking something over. I dreaded it. I thought to myself, “Ok. . . you can do this,” as I rounded the recliner and headed past the dining table. When I looked at the credenza, all that was on it was graduation photos of the client’s grandchildren placed in a line with nothing else.

The Presence of God

In that very moment, I felt a presence. It was extremely calming and filled the entire room. I felt a peacefulness overtake me. It was a feeling that I hadn’t felt in years. God was telling me very clearly, “No, you can’t do this, but I can, and you will make it through.” At that moment, I sat down at the dining table and accepted God and invited him to come back into my life. I cried with relief. Tears fell down my face as I lifted my hands with thankfulness. He met me at my hopeless dead end. He offered grace and forgiveness, which I humbly accepted. I said, “God, please help me. Please give me the energy to finish cleaning and I will go home and rest.” We both kept our promises that day.

A God Who Never Leaves

Before that day, I wasn’t asking anything from God. I wasn’t seeking God. I wasn’t considering anything of the sort. I was met by God. I needed Him. He knew it.

“Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

“And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient
for you, for My strength is made perfect in
weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather
boast in my infirmities, that the power of
Christ may rest upon me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

“All my efforts to clean me
Leaves me putrid and filthy.
And how can You look at me
When I can’t stand myself?
I’m tired, to be honest, I’m nobody.

Perfect in weakness, I’m only
Perfect in just Your strength alone.
Perfect in weakness, I’m only
Running in just Your strength alone.”
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